Now with 20 something years having shot by, I'm still inspired by all sorts of stuff, but I'm also seeing the dark side more clearly! It helps in my work, that is, to accept the heavy reality of the dark side. And still have enough belief to reflect back to a kid (who may think my passion for Cetera backed by an orchestra a bit amusing) that in spite of the pain he's lived through, life has beauty.
I say that kinda stuff in a thousand ways, and sometimes while I'm saying it, I'm thinking about the huge questions and thinking do I really believe what I'm saying. Sometimes I'm thinking "screw the huge questions, if I can believe even for a split second that beauty exists..." then magic. What happens is beauty is created!!! It's this amazing moment when the kid believes that I believe in beauty, and then somewhere between us it comes to life.
So some days when the vicarious weight of the darkness sucks at me like a black hole, I have to force myself to practice saying the glib stuff in my own mind. Things like 'just this breath', 'notice', 'label it, let it go', and again, magic... I'm really alive for that second, and it's not glib.
Take my advice, I'm not using it... ha. No really, sometimes I actually practice this stuff... I love it!
I'm gonna listen to Pete one more time before I log off