...not trying to be a smart-a...e, just trying to come to terms with my own complex conversation between me and me.
Been trudging (sometimes sprinting) along what I thought was the path to enlightenment, and every now and then I realise "shoot, I'm on the wrong bloody track... it's just over there". So I pause for a moment, look back along the path I've been walking, breathe a silent omg, then take a few steps through the jungle to the other path, and even if I'm only on that track for a split second, the statements like the one I've quoted above click somewhere in my psyche [and I think "yep... that makes so much sense"]. Then, I don't know why or how, I find myself back on the other path, crashing and struggling through stuff that doesn't really matter.
Something keeps drawing me back to the other path, and you would think it's because the other path is easier to walk, has better views, or something! But it doesn't, I can't tell you why the wrong path is so enticing, 'cause it sucks most of the time (and I'm not talking about moral concepts of right or wrong, I'm saying it just doesn't work for me). Not trying to push or pull anyone else along the same track, except offspring occasionally, and that's never successful :[ - it's my path, or paths. At least that's one thing I've got clear; that is, it seems to me you can walk with a few people along bits and pieces of your track, or theirs, but as soon as you start to discuss the experience of the path and what you are seeing and sensing, you realise that your on very different tracks, even though you're standing right next to each other! That's cool, 'cause sometimes they can see things on your track and you can see things on their path that have been missed (good bad or ugly). Sometimes a good friend will pretend they didn't see the echidna cross your track. Other times they might grab you by the elbow so you don't stand on it.
At times you might believe silence is the best option as your wandering along with someone, but silence can be misinterpreted. So, what if there's something else beyond words, silence, or feelings - most of us have had the experience. Sometimes scary, sometimes comfortable - a knowing more than a feeling.
Next time someone asks you "what do you know?" go all Zen on them... notice a breath, notice your connection to the earth, and if you get words, first ask your intuition should they be shared. If you don't get words you could just stare at them, or you could say you're not sure what you know 'cause it doesn't come with words, or you think you know something but "give me another second to notice where I'm touching the ground" [tongue not in cheek]!
If you were asking me this very second what I know, my answer would be "I seem to know when I'm on the right path". Back with the yoga master tonight - definitely a path that's working for me. So simple and so difficult and so good in so many ways...
Duck deliberately stops the conversation with himself to see if he knows anything else...