Everything flows from self love, and acceptance that you have a unique role to play in this universe (maybe even unique in any number of parallel universes?!@). Unfortunately much of what I learned till now fostered the opposite belief.
Nobody likes to be around someone who is constantly self-promoting, or do they? Maybe if you can promote your unique attributes subtly enough to not raise the hackles of those around you, then those that need your unique services might be grateful for your advertisement. I personally am always willing to hear the specialised detail that someone has developed in their chosen area of expertise (or accidentally developed genre awareness). For example, a conversation about 360 seconds (i.e. degrees not linear time - while looking at the craters of the moon). I'm really keen to continue that conversation soon.
Back to self love. Sometimes when you get forced to have a good search of your own archives, and you sit in the musky presence of your journals and see some patterns, you also see and hear some quiet stories that were never told regarding your resilience, creativity, and passion, and you recall some of your childhood dreams and fantasies when you allowed yourself to imagine your life without the regular limitations that cloud your adult perspectives on the world.
So once again my hat is respectfully dipped to Debbie Ford for reintroducing me to Carl and my own shadow, 'cause in it I found a powerful love and passion that I haven't felt since the naive days of adolescence. Now with a sober and reasonably seasoned adult brain, I'm thrilled at times with my deliberate attempts to creatively dissociate. I've had this conversation with many artists (those that use canvas, others musical instruments, and some who creatively use words), and there's a theme... Mostly; stop trying to please other people, learn to be with yourself and trust your intuition for each step. It's so bloody hard to do! But I think I have had a couple of glimpses (please forgive my new age hippy language) it's like I'm channeling something that doesn't belong to me.
I am an incredibly lucky Duck... I get to play with this sort of stuff for a living, and I have mad friends who enjoy these kinds of conversations (I call them 'the garden philosophers') in private. And, if you recall I live with Zen Masters.
I played the below clip to one of the three Zen Masters. I'm yet to hear his feedback...
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