Duck warning… I’m going to muse about some belief systems. If you are sensitive about your personal belief system, you might want to stop reading here.
If you are happy to pose questions to yourself (in the privacy of your own gray matter) then read on…
I’m still pondering whether any of us deserve ‘unconditional’ love or if you have to do something for it?!
I’m going to start with Jesus and then I might blur my self-talk in the direction of the Buddha. I don’t have allegiances to either, so I’m not trying to sell you anything here (I might even let myself ponder the Virgin Mary as an example of a mother’s possible unconditional love).
Anyway, back to Jesus. Jesus and his father, seem to contradict themselves (well to be fair it’s second hand contradictions, I haven’t had a chat with either of them face to face on the topic of love and justice and if you deserve it or not; that is, if you have to do anything to get it, or whether you automatically receive it ‘God’s gift’).
Some say you just have to have faith and you’ll be flooded with all the love and acceptance you can handle, without judgement. Others say you have to do some stuff (to enter the ‘kingdom of heaven’ “faith without works is dead”) to get the love you crave. And if you don't do the right stuff, or as some of the secondary sources say, simply rejecting the 'gift', that's enough to cop a very harsh judgement and an eternal sentence. Which doesn't make a lot of sense to me, even though I've seen that sort of thing happen between humans, I thought God would have a thicker skin (or membrane of some kind).
My thoughts after hanging out a little with the 'one who is awake' (Buddha) are that I sure did need a wake up call... I was living a lot of fantasy roles, and though I still have to play a lot of complex roles, I'm deliberately playing them, as opposed to thinking the roles are the core. So I'm thinking you do have to do some stuff. Doing things may not get you love or justice. But if you do nothing, you're virtually guaranteed to get less love and justice (and rightly so, from my perception of the universe).
I’m not going to continue to argue here about whether the secondary sources are accurate or who’s who, or speculate about their power to do, or what you have to do. What I’m interested in is my own battle in my own head about if I deserve what I’m getting, good or bad.
For example; if I am aware that historically I have not been as just and fair as I could have been, does that mean I can’t fight the cause of justice for another, or ask for some justice in relation to my current circumstances (especially if there is a hint of deja vu in the detail). Should I suffer in silence in an attempt to make some sort of reconciliation, appease the gods. Or should I forgive myself and get the hell on with what I have to do, fight for what I believe is right for myself and others in spite of the fact that I may have some personal karma yet to trudge through? In other words, live by my own value system, even if I can’t always live up to it…
I’m whispering yes to myself… ‘cause I’m now sitting having a three-way yarn with Jesus and the Buddha (and Mary is patiently eavesdropping). Neither asked me to burn a candle or stand on one leg, they’re both saying similar things to me…
“Get your shit together Duck”
“Really, practice what you know to be true”
“Accept your cognitive dissonance and do something constructive”
“Chop wood and carry water…”
So, my truth (and I don't care if I sound cliched - it really is important stuff that I quack on about to myself):
- Celebrate the little things.
- Do the little things.
- Love as best you can (there are conditions - let’s be honest. Even when you are a parent (not necessarily a virgin parent) you have conditions that you believe ought to be met. When they don’t get met, you then re-examine what you think are the important things to pass on, as a responsible custodian of a developing human. And often find that you’ve learned more than you set out to teach (and when you taste that moment, it’s easier to love in the next moment with a few less conditions).
- Expect justice even when you fail to practice it flawlessly.
- Be grateful when you don’t get the justice you deserve.
- Be grateful when you do get the justice you deserve.
- Be grateful when you get beautiful life gifts you don’t deserve.
- Be grateful for the gifts you might have done something to deserve.
- Dance (in private if you have to - I’ve tried the “like no one is watching” when they were, and I’m still cringing from that feeling).
- Sing (also in private if it’s kinder to your community, but do sing in the car and the shower, it’s more powerful than you may think)