I enjoy words, and really appreciate those who rarely assume that we all share the same definition of a particular word or experience... What I love, is the sense that words shared between friends took us to a place that's 'unlanguaged', a sense of connection [I know there's baggage attached to that word for many - there's a container ship full of historical attachments in that word for me that's why I picked it]. I'm just talking about that moment where you feel understood - loved even - and you can't put your finger on it, but you know that you connected with the other person [or even a cat or a dog - can't say I've ever felt that kind of connection with a lizard or a butterfly, but I'm not ruling it out...].
I love playing with words/metaphors/definitions all in an aim to untangle some of the mystery of how we connect, and how and why I choose or seem to choose certain action/reaction in response to your words and metaphors.
I do want to be known, but what I've discovered in my obsession with words is that it's not in getting the words right or hearing the right words from you. It's not feeling completely understood via language, 'cause that never seems to be quite complete... there always seems to be a need for another sentence, metaphor, or even one last word to get that feeling of being known.
It's not the perfect words, or the perfect look or touch in response to a desperate search for being seen and known... it's the process. It's that you actually want to connect with me. That is all that matters. Whether I am ever able to accurately express in words or actions what I want you to know, is doubtful. It's that you continue to make the effort to explore, that gives the assurance that I matter to you in ways that go much deeper than words or even actions.
I want you to know that I am deliberately exploring you too. I want you to know that I see and experience things that I am not even sure that you know about you, in fact I'm almost certain that the reality is that some of you, only I experience.
It's my intention to let you know that you are seen, enjoyed and loved as an evolving mystery. I don't believe it's possible to completely know, and even if I could it would all change in the next moment.
So, thanks for sharing the process, the electric connection. Sometimes I forget to touch the ground.